After watching numerous movies, reading numerous books and commenting on these ; I still do not have the ability to write a movie or book review.
Appreciating art is different for different people, and i agree critics do have a very analytical modus-operandi working when they savour art - dividing whole into parts and synthesizing the parts , criticizing the small element..... This modus operandi i have not developed, and i agree.
when i watch a movie or read a book , what i care is what i am getting from it. It is just , i do things for selfish purpose. For me non-fiction gives me more pleasure then a read of ullysses . It is just, i dont appreciate the motiff, hidden element , analogies ; which critics appreciates .
Movies i watch ,because of the depiction of reality(however fake it is) and the crisis of its character. I really like to be related to the character, to individual and savour his experience, may be i am vicarious , but it do make that moments a transcedental one-loosing touch with oneself. Simillarly , a character driven novel is what i love - fountain head, Atlas shrugged, Zorba the greek ....
After having such a transcedental experience , i did not have words to depict on the work of art. It is just asking a meditator to write about how he feels during meditation. For me , books and movies are spiritual experience.
EPILOGUE :- CAT score of 98.35 percentile . Maths 40 , English 50 and LR&DI 34 . No calls .(9 jan , 2009)
PROLOGUE :- Mitesh sitting in examination room, looking at one of the 50 students in the room giving a CAT mock paper. These 50 students like 2,34,000 students eying for a seat in the prestigious IIMs, which intake only 1000 students . And Mitesh thought " what the fuss is all about ".
Half an hour later,after the exam started , Mitesh walks off the room.
EPISODE 1 :- Money makes the world moves round
IIMs has come to be associated with high pay package or capitalist reason. Look at any newspaper in January (when placement season starts in IIM )- from high print economic times to low print punjab kesri , all talks about one crore packages of IIM grad. And for this reasons , we have , year after year, a high propotion of students , from engineering to arts , bright to dim , sitting for this exam , which for them will give them a sure way (as per the paper ) to mint money .
I ask myself , do it motivates me , just to do it for the sake of money .
well, for me , i thought was the thought. and this is the reason why i walked out of the room.
EPISODE 2 :- What Motivates me ?(July to first half of August)
Lazy people are not lazy , they just know that they can do it, and hence refused to do anything :- Mitesist saying
So the next two months , I did what i did best - Laze around, read books . I had in my mind that being management guru is just 10 books away , and in my heart to start a company and sell it when the next bull market come. What company , which company was irrelevant. What was important was how ? ( just how serial killer thinks -not whom or why but how to kill )
Being brought in a buissness family , i will not blame this instinct . Just one cant blame Rats for cutting away clothes . I had it in my genes . So I along with my other baniya friend (the name i cant reveal, just call him sachin ) discussed about the virtues of how buissness is better then 'Naukri' . How being pirate is better then a general in an army . On how it is better to die as ass-kicker then ass-licker , and also our grand dream of making our company public .
I think we were motivated enough .
EPISODE 3 :- What is management ?(July-Aug-Sept)
" The disorder of the universe is always increasing "- IIIrd law of thermodynamics
during my eclectic learning of management ( ten books away from being master ) , there was a series of sort epiphanies. Slowly and Slowly , I began to understand of what management is all about.
earlier there used to be small workshop , then they become factories , then series of factories , then we have corporation and now we have multi-national companies. Along the way size of a typical enterprise increased from 10 to 1,00,000 . And what management teach is how to tame this monster .
Management is not a gimmick of high salary , but it is a need of the hour . it may be 20-30 years or old but then the concept of corporation is only 80 years old (henry ford) .
Management may not produce a useful technical innovations, Managers may not be appreciated of anything they do ,but they are the need for the sustenance of human society.
We had managers in primitive human society (generals, garrisons..) , but there were no management schools . Which was same as we had engineers earlier ( hour glass , steam engines ) , but no engineering degree .
Though, it told me about indispensability of management as a discipline in human society, but it was not enough to dither me for pursuing an MBA degree.
EPISODE 4 - Depression week(2nd half of August)
" The Great Depression lasted from 1929 to 1937 " - class Xth ,NCERT History text book.
There are few things that one can do as an undergrad, and one of them is do nothing , a luxury that is lost as one ages.
On one faithful day , our dream company goes bankrupt (in future ) . The company which we had nutured , and had seen to have gone public. The day was when US declared bankruptcy.
I and Sachin decided to mourn for a week, and hence had a depression week. A period of deep introspection. A period when we change our positive view lens to negative view lens ( view for life) . We started looking at the darker side of life- Of our inability of choices, Of our wretched existence in IIT , On why we were born in the universe's most stupid planet , the planet's most poorest country , the country's most conservative state and the state's most narrow minded locality.
AND THAT WAS FUN.
well it was too much fun, and at that moment we parted way. And i decided to do management , partly because of complexity of management and partly because i was ranked 20,000 in one of the mock cat that i gave. this was an insult and a threat to my NARCISSM.
EPISODE 5 - Game Theory (SEPT 2009)
" Every Player tries to optimize its profit " - of what i was able to make out by reading 30 pages of John Nash thesis.
To prepare for CAT ,is a risky buissness. Considering the indian student , their intelligence and even more threatening their hard work. a single marks lost means a thousand students ahead of you. also we can not forget devine luck.
I thought of devising a good strategy, that even if i loose, i may have something to salvage. Something which will make it a risk worth taking.
"education is all about skill development , it is not rote learning ",is what reverberated in my head . A statement made by my class XI maths teacher ,criticizing coaching institute ,for loading students with lots of DPPs and Worksheets.
This is what i really wanted , and this is what is a win-win situation. I started my preparation based on sense of skill development.
The English required reading comprehension skills , read more
The Maths section required speed maths skills, vedic mathematics
LR sections required out of the box thinking , Solve puzzles..
well some or the other activity came along the way , and all was intended to skill development. It was same like GTA vice city , where the main protagonist wants to be don of the city , and for that he has to develop skills , which can only be done if he did some activities. I felt the same protagonist.
EPISODE 6 - MISSION INCOMPLETE(on 9th JAN)
"GAME OVER, PRESS START TO RETRY" - any atari console game
The results came, and i was bit dejected. The things i wanted to write is quite ubiquitous and used quite regularly(based on how ambitious you are) and i still want to write it - "if only #$#$^&$$#@@$$%%^&(masked ,no use to write , you wont be reading it).
In short , this year mission is incomplete, Next year a brand new inning.....
Written by :- God
Acted by :- Mitesh (Sachin cameo)
notes to reader :- dates are to the best of my knowledge , events are distorted to suit my narcissm(this is how the word is spelt) , comments should suit the blog intended purpose.
I am seriously thinking of taking my Multi-Intelligent Nerdy Device (M.I.N.D),which you folks call as Brain, for a checkup to either a neurologist or psychiatrist( a cheaper would do).
The problem with my device (MIND)....wait a minute ...for those whom my conversation sound weird..please red the italics otherwise omit it.
I believe in mind-bod-soul divide, where soul is the consciousness, Mind is the geneticaly-enviromentaly endowed entity and body is a servant of Mind, which sometimes looses control due t the presence of other opposite sex species or booze.
So the problem with my MIND is its apparent irrational behaviour which i have documented in personal journal let me elucidate these irrational findings
1> Previous affairs with opposite sex , food , games , clothes , views, opinions have revealed its apparent instability to form a firm choice .
2> when making choice among n items(n>2) , it becomes numb. Hence I always need to rely on opposite sex for this type of complex decision making. ( that is the reason I do not shop not because of poverty of mind, but poverty of mind)
and also because of it, that i am able to dote many girls but could not choose to date a single one. This inability , I think, is ubiquitous in IIT .
3>Its inability to do mechanical, routine , soul destroying jobs like academic studies for exams. This has brought a of shame and inferiority complex cause other folks here i found out have a highly advanced version of this ability.
4>Its highly advance ability to philosophize and convert :- music to harmonious noise; television to impinging-electrons heating the screen ; sex to animal ritual and hence love to sexual stimulation ; sports to waste-of-energy and life to propagation of genes. This has left me with inability to do any work which other term as my laziness ( NOT MY FAULT)
well other Quant-Logical-verbal ability are fine. It is , I suppose the society-conformity-module has some problem.
If any Kind,not so evil heart,easy for money doctor you know, please kindly notify me.
I am a teetotaler, and I find it absolutely weird seeing people - first drinking a foul smelling , rotten product of fermentation , then getting semiconscious and eventually manifesting this stupid act (of drinking) by some ultra insane at like singing loudly or laughing or doing some not-so-funny acts .
This whole episode then culminates with either puking (if booze is free ) or hangover, and at the end of it all , They proudly announce "Wasn't that fun ". Well if doing some hysterical , Mad and stupid act constitutes fun , then i just think of how much fun people in mental asylum are having. And how mental asylum will be a holiday spot for those who drink?.......
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