A PLACE FOR MY NARCISSIT RANT

EPILOGUE :- CAT score of 98.35 percentile . Maths 40 , English 50 and LR&DI 34 . No calls .(9 jan , 2009)

PROLOGUE :- Mitesh sitting in examination room, looking at one of the 50 students in the room giving a CAT mock paper. These 50 students like 2,34,000 students eying for a seat in the prestigious IIMs, which intake only 1000 students . And Mitesh thought " what the fuss is all about ".

Half an hour later,after the exam started , Mitesh walks off the room.

EPISODE 1 :- Money makes the world moves round

IIMs has come to be associated with high pay package or capitalist reason. Look at any newspaper in January (when placement season starts in IIM )- from high print economic times to low print punjab kesri , all talks about one crore packages of IIM grad. And for this reasons , we have , year after year, a high propotion of students , from engineering to arts , bright to dim , sitting for this exam , which for them will give them a sure way (as per the paper ) to mint money .

I ask myself , do it motivates me , just to do it for the sake of money .

well, for me , i thought was the thought. and this is the reason why i walked out of the room.

EPISODE 2 :- What Motivates me ?(July to first half of August)

Lazy people are not lazy , they just know that they can do it, and hence refused to do anything :- Mitesist saying

So the next two months , I did what i did best - Laze around, read books . I had in my mind that being management guru is just 10 books away , and in my heart to start a company and sell it when the next bull market come. What company , which company was irrelevant. What was important was how ? ( just how serial killer thinks -not whom or why but how to kill )

Being brought in a buissness family , i will not blame this instinct . Just one cant blame Rats for cutting away clothes . I had it in my genes . So I along with my other baniya friend (the name i cant reveal, just call him sachin ) discussed about the virtues of how buissness is better then 'Naukri' . How being pirate is better then a general in an army . On how it is better to die as ass-kicker then ass-licker , and also our grand dream of making our company public .

I think we were motivated enough .

EPISODE 3 :- What is management ?(July-Aug-Sept)

" The disorder of the universe is always increasing "- IIIrd law of thermodynamics

during my eclectic learning of management ( ten books away from being master ) , there was a series of sort epiphanies. Slowly and Slowly , I began to understand of what management is all about.

earlier there used to be small workshop , then they become factories , then series of factories , then we have corporation and now we have multi-national companies. Along the way size of a typical enterprise increased from 10 to 1,00,000 . And what management teach is how to tame this monster .

Management is not a gimmick of high salary , but it is a need of the hour . it may be 20-30 years or old but then the concept of corporation is only 80 years old (henry ford) .

Management may not produce a useful technical innovations, Managers may not be appreciated of anything they do ,but they are the need for the sustenance of human society.

We had managers in primitive human society (generals, garrisons..) , but there were no management schools . Which was same as we had engineers earlier ( hour glass , steam engines ) , but no engineering degree .

Though, it told me about indispensability of management as a discipline in human society, but it was not enough to dither me for pursuing an MBA degree.

EPISODE 4 - Depression week(2nd half of August)

" The Great Depression lasted from 1929 to 1937 " - class Xth ,NCERT History text book.

There are few things that one can do as an undergrad, and one of them is do nothing , a luxury that is lost as one ages.

On one faithful day , our dream company goes bankrupt (in future ) . The company which we had nutured , and had seen to have gone public. The day was when US declared bankruptcy.

I and Sachin decided to mourn for a week, and hence had a depression week. A period of deep introspection. A period when we change our positive view lens to negative view lens ( view for life) . We started looking at the darker side of life- Of our inability of choices, Of our wretched existence in IIT , On why we were born in the universe's most stupid planet , the planet's most poorest country , the country's most conservative state and the state's most narrow minded locality.

AND THAT WAS FUN.

well it was too much fun, and at that moment we parted way. And i decided to do management , partly because of complexity of management and partly because i was ranked 20,000 in one of the mock cat that i gave. this was an insult and a threat to my NARCISSM.

EPISODE 5 - Game Theory (SEPT 2009)

" Every Player tries to optimize its profit " - of what i was able to make out by reading 30 pages of John Nash thesis.

To prepare for CAT ,is a risky buissness. Considering the indian student , their intelligence and even more threatening their hard work. a single marks lost means a thousand students ahead of you. also we can not forget devine luck.

I thought of devising a good strategy, that even if i loose, i may have something to salvage. Something which will make it a risk worth taking.

"education is all about skill development , it is not rote learning ",is what reverberated in my head . A statement made by my class XI maths teacher ,criticizing coaching institute ,for loading students with lots of DPPs and Worksheets.

This is what i really wanted , and this is what is a win-win situation. I started my preparation based on sense of skill development.

The English required reading comprehension skills , read more
The Maths section required speed maths skills, vedic mathematics
LR sections required out of the box thinking , Solve puzzles..

well some or the other activity came along the way , and all was intended to skill development. It was same like GTA vice city , where the main protagonist wants to be don of the city , and for that he has to develop skills , which can only be done if he did some activities. I felt the same protagonist.

EPISODE 6 - MISSION INCOMPLETE(on 9th JAN)

"GAME OVER, PRESS START TO RETRY" - any atari console game

The results came, and i was bit dejected. The things i wanted to write is quite ubiquitous and used quite regularly(based on how ambitious you are) and i still want to write it - "if only #$#$^&$$#@@$$%%^&(masked ,no use to write , you wont be reading it).

In short , this year mission is incomplete, Next year a brand new inning.....

Written by :- God
Acted by :- Mitesh (Sachin cameo)

notes to reader :- dates are to the best of my knowledge , events are distorted to suit my narcissm(this is how the word is spelt) , comments should suit the blog intended purpose.